...I wish friends could be like LJ. Just pick up right where you left off. Who cares if it's been 6 months since I talked to you last. It's all good baby, it's all good. But I know, life doesn't work like that. you have to work at every relationship you have; it needs attention, love, and communication to grow. Sometimes, I can't get all 3 together and I'm very sorry.
Life's in the blender again and I just....uh!
I'm constantly torn between the life I want and the life I have. Living in palm desert has been the best experience of my life. though I've fallen a few times, I've still gotten up and made it through. I'm becoming more and more of an adult with each passing day, but with one phone call it all comes crashing down.
Families always know just what to say to make you feel like SHIT, it's an art. And my family, Picasso's! I'm tellin you. No matter how much time I spend with them, its not enough. I can't make them happy, but I figured that out when I was 4; did I just forget? I can't just cut them out, my family's not like yours we're tight.......like SUPER tight and it's annoying. I just need more understanding.
I'm going out of my mind. Hence this scatty entry.
I met a boy, but I just don't know. I'm a big talker and he's more of a jokester. He hides his feelings with humor and I can't crack him. I wanna be closer, but he's just so insecure that I can't get very much out. Granted, it's only been like a month and we're just "talking" but still I wanna know MORE. We text mostly, and I ask "hows ur day" normal response "pretty good." Is it wrong to expect some elaboration?! to me a short answer like that means you don't wanna talk. He knows he has a problem, but how do I crack someone who doesn't give???
I haven't seen some of my friends in months, and I honestly am sorry and I miss each and everyone of you dearly. This has been a tough few months, please have some understanding b/c I'm sure you're going through a lot as well. Thankfully through myspace I can keep tabs. I do love you, I do check up on you, so don't forget about me :)
The Distant Bitch.